So I guess I jinxed myself last week with the comment that
if it wasn’t for my short-term disability that I would tell BGB to come on and
join me, because she called my bluff.
A week that started off very normal, took a turn that we were not
expecting.
I had a busy week ahead of me full of training for work,
event planning for the weekend, Dr’s appointments, the list went on and
on. I had so much on my to-do list
I wasn’t sure how I was going to be able to do it all. Friday was no exception. The morning started with an appointment
with my OBGYN. Everything was
completely normal during my exam. I
was measuring on track and set my appointment for the following week. Immediately after my appointment I
drove over to the Spring of Tampa Bay to drop off some items for their silent
auction. I was on the committee
for their Peace Couture Gala taking place on Saturday night. I had just picked up a car full of gift
baskets for the auction in Orlando the night before.
I headed home for a full day of work. I had a long to-do list of follow up
items that I needed to complete before the weekend along with several
conference calls. I already had planned
that I would be spending Sunday afternoon wrapping any additional items up that
needed to be completed before Monday morning. I used my lunch break to run my last minute errands to get
ready for the baby shower the next morning. Oh yea, because not only was I on the committee for the
Spring’s Gala event Saturday night, but I was also hosting a baby shower that
morning in my home for my best friend.
I finished all my errands and was sitting down at my laptop
working on some analysis I was trying to wrap up when I had the urge to use the
restroom. I got up to go pee and
headed to sit back down when I got a sensation that I couldn’t control where it
felt like I peed myself a little.
I heard that this happens to a lot of women in their 3rd
trimester so I put on a panty liner and went back to the bathroom to see if
maybe I misread my body. Again, it
was as if I just chugged a 6 pack with how much I needed to use the
restroom. So I chalked it up to a
fluke, I mean, I do drink a crap ton of water everyday, and got back up to go
back to work. But… the sensation
happened again. And again. After 4 times of feeling like I couldn’t
control my bladder I called my OBGYN to describe what happened. Immediately she told me to head over to
St. Joseph’s Women’s Hospital to get checked out. She was pretty sure my water broke and they could test it to
make sure.
Well crap, what am I going to do? It is 4:00, my mom and friends are heading over to decorate
for the baby shower in about an hour, Logan is leaving the office any minute to
go out of town for the weekend to go camping with his buddies and I have
deadlines I am trying to hit for work.
Now I am heading to the hospital instead to get checked out? Well that put a wrench into my weekend. So I text message the girls to let them
know that I will probably be late to the house so I would leave them a key to
get started without me and I called Logan to tell him that he shouldn’t be
alarmed but I am going to drive over to the hospital because my water might
have broken.
I had no idea what was happening right now. In my mind, even if my water broke,
because I wasn’t feeling any contractions yet, they would check me out and send
me home until my contractions were closer. So worst-case scenario, I wouldn’t be very helpful for the
shower but could coordinate until it was time for labor. That is IF my water broke. I was joking with my friends about how
funny of a story would it be that I peed myself so bad that I thought my water
broke. Talk about an all time
pregnancy low.
Obviously, Logan had a little more sense and concern for the
situation and told me that I couldn’t drive myself to the hospital and that he
was on his way to pick me up. I
told him to just tell the guys that he would catch up with them at the campsite
later that night. I honestly
didn’t see my weekend changing yet.
But just in case I went ahead and started packing a bag for the
hospital. This was on my to do
list for the next week since I didn’t see any reason to do it more than a month
out. While waiting for Logan to
make it home, I’m sitting there on Google looking up various websites to see
what the heck I needed to bring with me.
About 30 minutes later, Logan was home and we loaded up the
car to head to the hospital. Side
note – I am continuously leaking the whole time. It is becoming more real that this is my water breaking
because I am now walking around with a towel shoved between my legs. We get in the car to head to the
hospital and I am sitting on a stack of towels and cracking up laughing because
of how it just doesn’t stop. But
of course my laughing makes it come out even faster.
We go to the exam room and find out right away that my water
did break. I also found out that
what was happening to me was very normal.
I always imagined the Hollywood version of water breaking that there is
one big gush of liquid vs. the annoying leaky faucet version I
experienced. The other thing I
learned is that when your water breaks, you must have the baby within 24
hours. So I wasn’t leaving the
hospital until this little girl comes whether I like it or not.
I had all these romantic ideas of labor/delivery that were
shattered in minutes. I had this
vision in my head that I would start having contractions at home. I would start a nice warm bath, light
some aromatherapy candles and listen to some soothing music to help me while I
waited for them to get close enough to warrant going to the hospital. Maybe my water would break while I am
in the water to make it a lot cleaner.
I would take a nice hot shower, put my hair up in a cute pony tail so
that the after birth we will be ready for our awesome celebrity photo where I
look fabulous and so does my baby.
Instead, I went to the hospital before I got to take a
shower, was required to be induced and experienced ever aspect of the
contractions hooked up to monitors in the labor room. We got off to a little bit of a rough start because they
inserted my IV incorrectly. Three
people looked at it and said it looked fine but when they started to administer
the penicillin (in case I had any infections we weren’t aware of) my entire arm
felt like it was on fire and started swelling up really large. I thought maybe I was being a baby
because of how bad the pain was, but when the nurse saw it, they immediately
removed the IV and tried in my other arm instead. What a world of difference that made. I still have some sweet bruises on my
arm from the bad IV job.
Once the pitocin kicked in, so did the contractions. They started off very mild, mild to the
point that the only reason I knew they were happening was because I could see
it on the screen. So what do all
these women complain about? This
is easy. Or maybe I’m just super
woman who has a high tolerance to pain.
After an hour or so the contractions got a little stronger. It felt like pressure in my abdomen
then gradually grew to the strength of a period cramp. Still, no big deal. Then it happened. The real contractions came and the pain
was unreal. I take it all back –
these hurt like a bitch and I can’t believe the number of women who choose to
experience all of this naturally. Time
to bring on the epidural. The
anesthesiologist couldn’t get there quick enough. I’ve heard that getting the epidural put in can be quite
painful. Luckily, I was having a
contraction at the same time they were inserting the epidural so I was so
focused on the pain of the contraction, I couldn’t feel what was happening in
my back.
Ah, euphoria.
Instantly I could feel the medicine running down my body. I felt the ultimate body high. It is an amazing feeling because you
are very aware of everything that is going on around you and you can still move
your body but you are numb to the pain.
Now the contractions simply feel like pressure. The whole process from when I was
brought to the hospital until I reached the point of being fully dilated was 12
hours. But it felt more like 2, it
was unbelievable how quickly the time went by. Once I hit the point of being fully dilated it was go time. In a flash there was a crew of nurses
prepping the room and giving me instructions on what to do next. I went from relaxing and watching TV to
full Game On mode in seconds.
(Funny side note – when we flipped on the TV the movie Knocked-Up was on
so I was watching labor right before going into labor myself.)

Logan was so amazing during the whole process. He was such a great coach; so
encouraging and supportive throughout the whole day. After our baby girl was checked out by the NICU team and was
cleared as healthy and I got to hold her, Logan and I were just overcome with
emotion. This tiny 5lb 11oz person
is a combination of both of us.
The love that we feel for each other reflected back in this sweet life
that we created. It was that
feeling that made us both realize that there was only one perfect name for
her. Zoe. Zoe is Greek for Life, and the amount
that our lives changed when we learned we were pregnant and how much it was
about to change for ever for this person who came a month sooner than expected
made it perfect. I always knew her
middle name would be Grace because it is a family name that I have always
loved, but now it seemed even more fitting. I discovered that if she was any bigger than she was, I
would not be able to deliver on my own but would have required a c-section
because of how small my pelvis is.
If my water broke any later, Logan would be in a campsite drinking with
his friends where he would have no cell phone reception. If it were another weekend, my mom
wouldn’t have been planning on being in Tampa with me that night. It is only the Grace from God that
allows perfect timing like this.
Now we get to start a new chapter of our life together. It has only been a few days now since
Zoe Grace entered our lives, but I couldn’t imagine life without her. The amount of love that I already have
for her is overwhelming. I am
enjoying every trying minute of motherhood, late nights and lack of sleep. It is funny how my jam packed weekend of obligations got completely scrapped, yet, life went on. The shower took place at my home without me, the Gala was a success, and my work is covered. Zoe is already teaching me that I need to focus on family first. I can only imagine how much we are going to learn together over this next year and I am going to take the time to appreciate all of it.