This was
another week of firsts for me. I am
finally feeling the baby moving for the first time. What an incredible feeling this is. I can see why people have such a hard time
explaining what ‘flutters’ are. It isn’t
a kick. It isn’t something that is
overly obvious. It is very subtle, but
it doesn’t feel like anything else that would normally be happening in your
belly. I was worried that I’ve been
having baby flutters for weeks now but couldn’t tell if it was a stomach cramp,
gas or the baby. But once I actually
felt it, I knew that is what it had to be.
When I felt it
for the first time, I was instantly overjoyed not just by being able to feel
it, but because of where I was and who I was with when it happened. Logan and I took Friday off from work so we
could spend a long weekend with our friends in Big Canoe. We wanted to do a little mini vaca to
experience what autumn should feel like when you live anywhere other than Florida,
see some mountains and relax by a fire with friends. So Friday afternoon when I got the sensation
for the first time, I was outside at a winery enjoying amazing views while my
friends sipped on wine instead of at my cubical staring at a computer
monitor. I spent the rest of the day truly
glowing with a grin from ear to ear just thinking about our precious BB.
So how would I
describe the flutter feeling? First, it
is a feeling that you get very low in your abdomen. Well below your belly button just around your
pelvic bone. That was my first
indication that it wasn’t gas that you would normally feel much higher in your
stomach. The sensation comes in
waves. It is similar to that tingling
feeling that you get when you kiss someone you like for the first time or when
you are about to go down a roller coaster.
That tingling turns into a series of subtle movement that runs across
very quickly. I imagine it like the
bubbles that you see floating up in a champagne flute. They are tiny and fast. Some people describe it as a fish swimming
around in the bag when you pick it up from a pet store. I wouldn’t say it feels like that. But I could say it feels a little bit like
when you throw your line in the water and a fish is nibbling on your bait but
hasn’t actually hooked on yet. No matter
how you would describe it – popcorn popping, butterflies, or goldfish –
it is an experience that you don’t understand until you have it.
Now that I do,
I don’t want it to go away. It gives me
a connection to BB that I haven’t had yet.
I can’t wait until it turns into actual kicks so that Logan can
experience this too. I am amazing by him
on a daily basis. Each step that we have
taken as a couple has brought us closer.
I keep thinking, there is no way I can love this man more than I do
right now. But when he started kissing
and talking to my belly and reading the baby books, he took it to a whole new
level. The idea of him being a father
gives me a new love and respect for him that I didn’t have before and it
absolutely melts my heart. This baby is
going to be here before we know it and I really need to do everything I can to
take all of this in.
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